OHEMGEEEEEEE

So today I made salmon and I feel very conflicted. My full meal prep was salmon, roasted sweet potatoes and asparagus. I've been vegan for 5 years and I made that choice for health/ethical/environmental reasons. I feel like I've abandoned my morals, there's some level of shame that I'm feeling at the moment. Also it took me about 5 minutes to take the first bite, so dramatic. And all meat has a certain taste and smell. It's hard to explain, but the salmon had a meaty smell. It wasn't bad, just different. After I was able to get over the mental hurdle, it wasn't that bad. It did take me a while to finish my plate though. But I'll see how my body is feeling in the morning. I really don't know how to feel. I just hope that I make peace with my decision and feel even better inside and out. Also another thing I'm adopting from the Mediterranean lifestyle is more herbs and less salt. It's an adjustment for my taste buds, but I think that my body will thank me. I'm not sure when I'll eat fish again or venture into poultry. If I do eventually try poultry, it would HAVE to be halal. If something is dying for my wants/needs I want to to be as ethical as possible. I do know that with halal meat the butchering process is very different, they make sure that the animal is relaxed and prayed over. That matters to me. I'm still trying to think of more ethical ways to consume fish, if this is a lifestyle that I want to adhere to. When I see fish being made for human consumption, I think of that scene towards the end of Finding Nemo where Marlin and Nemo are finally reunited only for the fishermen to cast their big ole net and almost take away Dory....FUCK. For the salmon I baked it at 400F/25 minutes. I used this herb seasoning from Bragg, lemon slices, cherry tomatoes, capers and olive oil. I air fried the asparagus with olive oil and lemon/pepper. I also roasted the sweet potatoes for an hour at 400 F.