Choices

Something that I'm constantly having to remind myself is that I have choices and autonomy. This can be in ways like choosing to plan a vacation for myself or how I spend my weekends. It's so easy to just get up, go to work, eat dinner and repeat. Something that I'm working on now is reinforcing the truth that I have a say in the relationships that I participate it, platonic and romantic. In the past, I used to find myself waiting to see if a girl liked me, as if I were waiting on a green light. That was the only thing that mattered. I didn't really give thought to if I really liked her or if I liked the possibility of being chosen. Sometimes I would fixate on a girl who I'm talking to even when she hasn't made it 100% clear that she wants to seriously pursue me. Like I used to hang around just in case she decided that she wanted something serious with me, lameeee. I used to let the probability of us being together rely solely on if I was being chosen or not. I used to forget that I'm responsible for myself and that closed mouths don't get fed. I needed to ask for what I want and be willing to walk away if we're not on the same page. I don't care to have anyone in my life, platonic or romantic, if there isn't a mutual choosing of one another. I deserve that and my actions need to reflect that mindset.