Confidence.

What is confidence? Google would define confidence as, "a feeling of self-assurance arising from one's appreciation of one's own abilities or qualities." 

My relationship with confidence has fluctuated over the last few years, but in the grand scheme of things, is something that I've been cultivating my entire life. Life has always been...interesting...and at a very young age I realized that if I wanted to thrive in any area of my life, it would be dependent on me showing up for myself. Even when I couldn't articulate it, I always knew that I really wasn't anyones priority, if anything I was in the way. This was a harsh realization, but I soon came to the conclusion that if nobody was going to give AF about me, I WAS GOING TO GIVE AF ABOUT ME! Anyways, I feel that this attitude is what pushed me to believe in myself enough to start fashion designing, my makeup brand, my channel and PlanetSyd. I literally just thought, "I'm going to try     " And I did, it was that simple! I don't need anyones approval or validation when it comes to how I live my life, and that is liberating. I deeply appreciate my resilience, my mind and my ambition. I am determined live a good life because I deserve it. The thing about having a ridiculous amount of belief in oneself is that you have to see it and believe it before everyone else does. I've had some really harrowing experiences these past few years that have really shaken to my core. For a minute I didn't know who I was outside of my trauma. I don't ever want to get back to that place, so now I'm constantly reminding myself that I will always be a friend to myself FIRST! In the future I would like for my sense of self and confidence to not originate from such a reactive place, but right now, I'm good. I'm just taking it day by day. Happy Saturday DIVAS ✿