Leonardo is okay and I'm not like other Gworls...jk
A quick update on my cat's health: I was finally able to take Leonardo to the vet to get his eye looked at and he CUT TF UP! He tore that exam room up! He got an antibiotics shot that'll last 14 days and I can tell that he's feeling a lot better. I'm so grateful that his eye is healing and he won't need surgery to have it removed. I spent some money, but not as much as I thought I would have to spend. I'm still working on retrieving my car from the tow lot, but I'm relieved that Leo's health is no longer weighing on me. I love Leo!
In other news, I've been sketching some designs that I'm so excited to share with the planet. My creative juices have been flowing and I'm so thankful to be back in a better headspace. I feel like I'm finally allowing for my new self to emerge, in the past I didn't feel safe enough. One thing that I love and struggle with most as an artist is feeling confident enough to validate my own work before I share it with the planet. I think it's important to let your ideas marinate, but it's just as important to know when to share. There was a lot of, "Should I work on my craft more? Should I let my idea evolve more?" There's a lot of faith that you'll need in oneself to try something new. I love and fear that. As an Aquarius, one thing I've learned to accept is that I'm NoT LiKE oTheR GwORLs. (that was a joke) "Gworls" is gender neutral btw! But seriously, I have a very deep desire to stand out, I love being an individual! I just need to embrace that being understood and being an individual are not mutually exclusive. However, I only have control over how I show up in the world, not how I'm perceived. I can only hope that the community that is for the REAL me will show up. I'd rather be in pursuit of community while being my most authentic self opposed to being who I THINK people want me to be and suppressing something that gives me joy, self-expression. One thing that I do when I'm feeling unsure of who I am is reminding myself that I am that bitch. You (yes, you reading this) are that bitch!! It's not a question, it's a statement of fact. I can question facts, but that won't change that a fact is a fact. Why am I that bitch? Because I was created that way, simple. I am destined to be wildly successful, respected and revered for my mind. I can spin gold out of the life I've been given. Questioning why or if is a waste of time after a while. I am PlanetSyd =1 of 1. Why would I deprive the planet of my creative and unique contributions? That doesn't make sense. So remember gworls, YOU ARE THAT BITCH!